Watched

I am the watcher who watches you stare

At the window where you sit, exhausted

Hopeful that, back at you, oblivion would glare

As you pierce through yet another night, rusted

Passersby, to and fro same unknown paths

I knew you then, when the dim stars seemed to shine

When you’d walk around and cry out of faith

When trust wasn’t an issue and kindness a shrine

I knew you when our eyes met with a shy giggle

Breaking away, today, tonight, and the next

The windows are less and less clear, the morning fades

You shut the curtains again, and blame the rain

A sigh, humming, a track of rose Autumn, and check

Once more, if there are better images elsewhere, but in vain

Every day, I live with you, passing by dreams of new landscapes

Yet my heart is at a loss, as I burn yet another pancake

My gaze blurs a second, and I regain a sense of self

My hands trembles and as you notice, offer a cuddle

We watch each others’ fate, day in day out

Pieces of us are torn apart, and the rest rests

In a humbling smile, I try to pretend not to doubt

Old convictions, and that there will be new quests

Although you know, as you are the watcher watching

When I stare blankly, your eyes like mine are caring

Although you’re convinced we’re chained fatalistically

When you see me you see you, and you’ll wish to the moon

Next time you sink into darkened skies,

I know you’ll still plead for our struggles.

Jozanie – February 18^th, 2014.